To Cry or Not to Cry

To cry or not to cry

to let go or not to let go –

That is the question.

Whether It hurts more to let go

or whether it hurts more to hold on

*

To be silent, with each departure presenting a step

to loneliness.

Saying “goodbye”

knowing you will never come back

*

Staying together

knowing that we won’t last long

*

I want to erase every memory with you

I won’t have to suffer like this if I do

But can I really forget you?

I can’t let you go, but I have to

*

Forgive me

for loving you too much.

I’m afraid you’ll disappear

even though this life was not meant for us

*

It hurts the most,

choosing a decision

that will make me suffer for a lifetime

in exchange for the happiness

of many

*

Today, tomorrow, until the day I die

I hope I don’t forget.

In this life, and in the next one,

I’m waiting for you, always

I was watching this sad, depressing, but beautifully written korean drama, Hotel del Luna, and I just had to write this lol. I needed to vent my sadness for the characters SOMEWHERE.

Not: The soliloquy’s speaker is a character in the drama 😦 I’m sorry, but it’s just so sad.